note to readers, there is a tagboard at the bottom, lazy to figure out where to put it so just left it at the bottom of the page, tag please =)

望着自己的影子，可笑的是，我开始怀疑看着的影子是否真的是自己。不知不觉，我发现我已经向现实低头。现实，往往将梦想打碎。人生，也一步步让你向现实低头。在球场上不放弃的鹏锐，在多艰难的球赛都不到哨声响起那一刻决不放弃。现实，真的能将一个人，完全改变。或许，历史上留名的成功人士，就是有勇气和现实对抗，而成功。我要重新找回自我，回到那一个，连自己都尊敬自己的鹏锐。我决定不再任由现实与命运操控我的人生！路是人走出来的，选择走上大家都走的路，只是让现实决定自己的人生，选择去逃避而走上自己觉得“可以接受”的路。我受够了这样的人生，我的人生，我要自己掌握！决定走出我自己的路！或许让自己好过的人会觉得坚持的人是笨蛋，为何不让自己轻松一点？可是，成功的人，可能就是我们认定的笨蛋。因为他们决定挑战现实。逆来顺受的日子，我厌倦也受够了！不要再当羡慕别人成功的人，我要自己为自己的成功感到骄傲。我要自己面对镜子时告诉自己，这就是我一直认识的鹏锐。不再抱怨现实，不再抱怨世界的不公平。

鹏锐，勇敢走出你自己的路！我知道，我可以！加油！　

Life is pushing me now to think, think about how to earn more money by not just working, i dun wanna rely on my company issuing pay to me. cuz i will be in the rat race. but how do i come out of it? i need ideas, but i can't seems to have any. LOL

Why must i be here in life living under expectation? why did i even come here to suffer? if money is all the issue that means everything to u all. why dun u give birth to a child who is capable of being a billionaire. I also hope i can have money. so i can give u all presents during festive season. yet i am working for no pay. how on earth u expect me to have extra money? Money Money and Money..comparing me and gor, why not u stop after giving birth to him and yet give birth to me too. LOL..