hmm..just here for a short update.

fate is really an awesome thing, like how people go one big round before ended up being together. it always sounds like it is the kind of storyline u see in drama and nv expect it to happen in real life. but it just happens. in mine =D i am glad, that of all the unfortunate things that have happen. i have u. always there by me. i always like ur smile, so i will nv be the one to take away the smile on ur face and make u cry. i can't give u the best. but i will give u all i can. =D perhaps i am glad we go one big round, at least, we get to appreciate each other more =) thanks, for coming into my life.

I am so damn fucking pissed off today. ppl i trust to be my brothers cross my limit today. making a fool out of me by making me look like a retard with all the stickers on my back. walking around in school and dun even bother to tell me or take it off while walking around in school. and when jing zhou came out and tried to take it off for me. they even ask him not to. i mean, is it so fun to be making a fool out of ur own brother/buddy.

fucking bitches!!!! brothers for 7 years..and this is wad i get. what i get for trusting u as the best friend i can ever ask for.

I am sorry. but i regretted what i did in the past, thats why trying to make up for u all this years, trying to be there whenever u need someone to talk to. i am not asking too much, but pls. i am still a human, and i have my own feelings and troubles, stop expecting me to be someone i am not. cuz i can nv be. its been 7 years, i hurt u so deeply. and i am glad we are still friends.

but when ever u call me when u are down and crying over the phone, when u are angry and shouting over the phone. what else can i do other than to listen to u? and, i dun expect anything from u, but at least, treat me as a friend with respect instead of someone u will only call when u need someone to talk to, and he must be there.

i just got a feeling, u were just making use of me all this while. am i wrong? trying to make up for how much i have hurt u in the past?

u nv consider how much ur words hurt, saying i am not a good bf in the past but a very good friend now. i was like 12year old that time. and how good do u expect me to be. stop comparing me with ur other ex who were supposed to be more mature than i am when i am with u.

anyway.fine with me so long as u are happy. just let me be myself.

ok..a very long week for me..lol..just recover from my high fever. and then, didn't even rest well for the week..gosh. haha..anyway. fri had to hand up a 20page report for busfund. so yeah, didn't sleep on thurs nite to finish up the project. on fri, wear formal to school for presentation..then went to meet dear for the club key..thinking of rot inside for a while then go home change and come back for frisbee. but receive jeremy sms telling me need me to be the overall in charge for the napfa thingy in school. so end up..i cannot go back home. lucky got bring a jeans along wif me. rot inside club room after getting key from dear. thanks dear. =D hehe..cannot sleep inside cuz sms those helper to meet me in club room before 2.30.. so yeah, went out to bus stop for a smoke with fattah then see this guy who have a crush on dear dear, he stares at me for a freaking 10mins know? scary but damn hilarious lah. saw wy, shawn and xiaowei at bus stop shortly after it. =) then went for the napfa thing. fortunately fantastic 2 came to join me, to help out(jiexin was sick) so yeah, saw zy, june, zutu, cheryl and step at sports complex(they taking napfa). after helping out till around 6plus, jeremy came and drag me and randall to hsssc agm. their mc so nice lah. so much better than the stupid csc one. hahas.

damn funny, dear,wy and xiangluan sleeping inside club room during the agm.so when they came over, its like refreshment already. so sweet of dear, she intro me to her friends "this is my bf" sia lah, give me a shock of my life. hahas..

hmm..debrief in club room after that then went home, went out for supper wif wy and xiaowei at 1am then reach home at 5am. hahas.

thanks for coming into my life, promise nv to leave me. its a blessing to have u by my side. =D