perhaps i have always been using the past as an excuse,to avoid getting into another relationship and get hurt. i always tell myself, constantly reminding, not to trust so easily. yet, i trusted again and again. am i too stupid? or is it just that the right one has nv appear yet?

do i, still have the courage to trust love again? can Love Is Everlasting no longer be a L.I.E to me?

i keep hoping. the person who say she love me really mean it deep down her heart. as in, really will last when i chose to be with her. but..will there be someone out there.really mean it? perhaps there is.yet..no longer can i trust.

i am just waiting, for the someone to walk into my heart, to be there for me and give me the confident to trust again. nv to leave me no matter what. thats all i ask for? perhaps..

wa..long day today. wy called me to tell me must be in school to carry the tables back to sports complex from club room by 8.20am. when my lesson by right starts at 1 but by "left" 3pm. so yeah, kinda stupid. and its those freaking tables, those tables which CUTS. omg. luckily AL and us got cleverer and learn from our lessons. we use masking tape to tape the tables to the trolly so that it won't slide off and hit me on the head and arms or legs. haha..

job done with some kind hearted sub coms but still..saikang warriors still saikang warriors. went to mac to eat breakfast after that and oh well. randall sms wy saying wed there is asc agm.but crashed with our main com official meeting. so sending the "fantastic four" out again to represent the sports club. fantastic four=me, cj, jiexin and andrew. oh well.no comments. haha

and so funny, i went school wearing black top. and tpsu agm was today, dress code was black. lol..so went to club room after school in order to take phil's ball to pass it to him, jeremy ask me to go to the agm together. LOL. so ended up getting drag to the student union agm. and tpsu agm is OMG lah. the whole sports club cannot stand it at all. the noise pollution created in the auditiorium was crazy..like seriously i thought my ear drum got a hole created. randall and xiangluan keep using their cameras to create the flash which keeps irritating our eyes. then tpsu de cameras also flash. the powerpoint slides says. "see the stars" on the bottom so all of us went, "OK, now i know why we can see stars". super funny!!! we were like playing in the auditiorium when the agm ended. and i really mean play! hahahaha..details i shall not say much.

lol..k.i think i type enough. shall come back again..bb

seeing u again, memories hit back & i realise even trying to forget u, i cannot. even if u are in a relationship now, i find it hard to give up even though i have given u my blessings. perhaps i shouldn't have put my faith and trust in. getting use to it. =)

Ok..shall blog about what happened on saturday as promised..supposed to meet jerlyn at 813 at around 10plus in the morning.but i was there at 9.15 to train alone. its been really long time since i last really train alone. wait until jerlyn reach then thought her like one question only then went to eat cuz phil came down and wanted to eat. LOL..damn lame, she make a very big fuss over the water droplet on the tray. even took a picture and put it in her blog.. =.=

ok anyway, send her off to meet jomain at tamp inter, went off to 813 again to complete my 200 3-pointers. shujing came over then rot while i continue the last few balls. then went up and down phil blk like 3 times? she literally sat on the phone..haha..cuz i poke until she bth..send her home cuz cannot play ball when phyllis call to say want play. cuz one whole group came over to the court and occupy it by playing soccer.

went back to 813 slack a while more before taking bus 15 back. Anyway..I want back my sleep!!! haix!!

long long update..enjoy reading( if u have the time)

Hi readers, especially jerlyn, hello!!! u saw? i updating now.

I have been wondering, if love is to accept the shortcoming of the other party, why is there a need for change? i always heard, "why can't u just change this,this,this for me" well..if its such a easy way to change, why is there a phrase "leopard doesn't change its spots" so isn't accepting the good points and the bad points of one person an easier job? isn't it what true love should be? or is it that, true love nv really exist in real life, it only happen in fairy tale. Love Is Everlasting= L.I.E.

ok pardon me, just came into my mind, for those who are sweetly in love..all the best ya? =)

Thurs:
went for the sports club bbq..super rubbish. expecting like 20 ppl but end up sapp,gabriel, toshi, jasmine all last min nv come etc. but we did have lots of fun! i going to post something really bad that we did, so ppl, pls help me keep it as a secret ok? haha..we shopped at ntuc for the stuffs we need and then, push the trolly to the pit. and then at the end of the day, we sort of lazy to push the trolly back, so we tried to pry out the one dollar coin. at first was using keys, knife and pliers. but none helps so we boils down to burn the red part which used to take out the coin. we melt the plastic and eventually it came off the chain. then stuff in and take out the coin. damn hilarious, but lucky we didn't get caught. cuz i guess one trolly will be very expensive..so sorry ntuc. but what is done has been done, no point crying over spilled milk. sorry anyway.

Fri:
suppose to go for a sub committee meeting at 10 but i woke up at 9.45. first time ever in my life has i ever leave the hs in 7mins after i wake up. record man! cab down to school and i was still late, sorry randall and jeremy. anyway, me and cj damn zai, cuz know all the main committee even before joining sub committee, so we are completely involved in every single event for planning. Oh and siao liao, at first sports club AGM(annual general meeting) dress code was formal initially,which wasn't a problem for any of us..but now. they changed the theme into childhood days, now i am screwed, completely with no idea what to wear at all now.anyone have ideas? hmm..AND AND AND..OMG..michelle brought soft toys to the club room for decorating of the lecture theatre for the childhood days theme.and wa..the eeyore seriously DAMN CUTE!! i was behaving like a small young girl hugging the eeyore in the club room.seriously damn damn damn cute! i won't mind it as my birthday present. but pls dun ask me to go out to meet u guys ya? it will be kinda embarrassing for a guy to carry it around..haha..oh ya, went to see wy's grandmother who was hospitalised,glad to know she is feeling better..then rush back to school for the main committee meeting. spent like nearly 4 hours to settle for AGM final planning. i will be representing sports club with CJ to go for the CSC's AGM. =D means..i dun need to be attending the dry run for our sports club AGM. hehe..but still have to be there on friday. thurs and fri completely booked from 5pm to 10pm? so yeah..oh ya..tues also having a meeting for sub coms at 7pm. ok..which is left with just monday and wed which is free..hmm..anyone wants to meet me up pls schedule ASAP.haha

been really tired this few days..its like since clubbing that day, i haven been sleeping in..i think i am screwed..drinking does not make me feel like sleeping. instead, i became wide awake. then, drinking red bull makes me feel like sleeping..WTH!! I want back my sleep lah! =(

went to 813 to ball on saturday and, while playing one-on-one with phil, i sort of regret why i teach him that move cuz he came in straight and twisted my left thumb. now. i won't be able to gym. lol. =( ok i am dead..my left thumb haven recover and wy called n tell me swim and gym later..ok..die! lolx..whack lor. oh ya..i need to blog so that miss kiew shujing and miss jerlyn woo will stop saying i am lazy or pig.. =)

went to club and omg..waste of time..in the end only like 3 survivors completely sober. wy me and stephen totally not affected by all the alcohol. 13 others all drunk. zutu even went home at 12. lol..super boring. rebel only attraction is only the songs which can make it. table like hell, drinks so expensive but not high at all. no girls somemore..rather go future lor.

and oh ya..we managed to get zh to dance floor! too bad..got no 'caicai'(chio bu) then cannot be wingman for zh..sian..went off damn early, we left at 2.30 cuz mandy(birthday girl) also down..first shot gone liao..lol..got kiss when i am at the dance floor..but..erm..i can't remember her name..opps..but it wasn't on purpose..dance floor cannot hear mah..

nth much about the day other than clubbing..next time if those closer brother go then fun! lolx..

thats all..

Sian, going clubbing tml. supposely should be happy. but not now. the bastard in the group of brothers going..spoil mood.

Mandy, u better be glad that i going lor. and pray hard i dun drink until punch him in the face. mian zi gei hen duo liao hor!! fuck..can sort of like predict how fucked up can the party be. i am thinking i rather go find targets then to stay at table now. lol

Woohoo, Last paper tml..took my pecon paper today, should be able to top the class again although i screwed up a 5 marks question. but alot of tricky questions in MCQ, i guess my class ppl all siao liao. lucky i know the difference between increase in supply and increase in quantity supplied. which causes 5 marks for section B and like 4 question in MCQ related to that. One MCQ 2 marks. scary.

Telecommunications and system tml..formulas pls stay in my brain! went to club room again this few days. my favourite hangout in school now. haha.can go in sleep enjoy air con.so shuang.

this few weeks quite sway. but seems to be getting better le. thanks ppl. appreciate the stuff and time u guys did. =)

Oh ya..mandy birthday today, then going clubbing on Sat night. still deciding whether to go anot. Mandy invite liao leh..dun go a bit bu gei mian zi. but they dun open table not fun leh. i also dun feel like getting hook up with the girls so..erm..shall see how. may lady luck smile on me tml for my paper =)

perhaps i should have let go the moment u send that email. i am a fool for holding on..hoping u to be back. i keep telling myself, its fine so long as u are happy, but, it is hurting deep down. i will give u my blessings, so, pls be happy.

being serious in relationship doesn't last anyway..so why am i always the one being serious and end up getting hurt. Love, what is that?

Goodbye..