一切，结束了吗？

一切结束得太突然
我来不及反应。
篮球生涯，结束了吗？
我还能，继续带领，
这群我看着，
一步一脚印成长的小鬼，
走到最后吗？
SOUL的每一个成员，
是我一直努力撑下去的原动力。

took quite long to post this entry..lolx..

Hi Readers!! a few updates for these few days..friday training for SOUL..taught mervin some street ball styles of dribbling..then went to eat with kai xiang n xiao pang before going home..my dad called at 9pm n my battery flat..so i was like..oh no..why daddy today go home so early..lolx..then they going out for dinner..then i immediately went to take bus back home..then reach home..saw the shoes my brother bought for me on the floor..then no one at home..i take my phone to my room n charge then my mom called home..then i know my brother go down only like 1 min ago then they left without waiting for me! =( then ask me go down to kallang airport myself..change then went to wait for bus 30..i waited for like more than 30 mins then the bus come..pek cek sia..after eating then went straight home cuz someone coming over to view our hs (we renting it out then moving over to my godma's place) oh ya..then that person pro sia..he come..look around for like 10mins n say he want to rent n put a deposit of 500bucks straight..lolx..i was like..wa..so fast?

saturday, mervin n philip came over my place after my dinner cuz ask me bring them to parkway for job interview..lolx..so i was like..err since i am free..should be ok..lolx..but philip got no jeans so he was asking whether he can wear 3/4 shorts..so i told him come over my place then i give him one of my jeans..lolx..went to pp then went to talk to my 'gan ma' first..so shun bian ask her if 14 year old can work anot..then she say dun think so..then david came back from break so i ask him whether can anot..then he say most probably cannot..hahas..n he thought mervin n me are real blood related brother..hahas..then i realize cuz mervin skin also quite dark n side parting for hair..n we have another thing in common..our face very small!!! lolx..accompanied them walking around to 'hunt' for part time job..then they ended up asking kfc..then the person told them this outlet dun need ppl le..but whitesand n tampines outlet needs..so mervin was saying go to whitesand since we need to get ernest jersey from ernest mum..(ernest stays at pasir ris but he left singapore so ask daniel to play for him for sunday match against sharks) we took the bus from pasir ris inter to ernest place after mervin n philip realize minimum need 6months for kfc..so they didn't work..then..mervin said something in the bus n make me laugh until stomach cramp..lolx..he knows i normally look at girls legs to rate a girl de..n will describe the leg as 猪脚 if the leg is "big" then one girl board the bus n she was plump lah..then mervin just make a comment saying..这个是整只猪（indicating its not only 猪脚) i laugh like mad..lolx..went to get ernest jersey then we went back..they took bus 21 to the tampines kfc outlet wif me as i was thinking of go home n rest first before going over to zh place..
but..when the bus just go pass zh place de bus stop..lh msg me telling me his dad dun let him stay over..so i was like =.= lolx..then he told me he already at zh's hs le..so i go over lor..lolx..wait until every brothers was there..too bad wy nv come..but rest was there..lolx..circle of death..freak man! i was sway enough to had near 40 shots..OMG..screw sia..thanks zh n jun for sabo-ing..lolx..after finishing the bottle of vodka..cw say he wanted to get some tibits to eat..so me,kenneth,zy,wj went to 7 eleven then i got a red bull..lolx..actually was fine just that having a little headache..but after the red bull..i vomited! lolx..go to zh hs then went to toilet..vomit until nth come out le but i still feels like dying! lolx..zy n cw start knocking the door to ask if i am ok? lolx..i went toilet for like 3 times n i dunno how long i stay inside the toilet..lolx..came out then went up to zh room..go toilet to bathe wif cold water for a while..feeling much better then went in n sleep on the floor for 2 hours n i am ok le! SORRY brothers! jio u all out to ton then i was like going to die..lolx..around 8am..went to eunos to eat then went back wif cw..chiong home n pack my stuffs cuz moving in my godma hs..pack all my clothes le then i rush out to meet kx at sing post that bus stop..then went off to meet rest of the boys at parkway..went mos burger to eat then waited for xiaopang n daniel to come..went to take bus 135 to ying hs there de bus stop..then took bus 105 to Australian International School to play our game against SHARKS..lolx..i am so glad!! Mervin put everything i teach him to play!! =) i saw him looking at the time beside the court when dribbling the ball up the court..his point guard skills n experience is getting better..his pass too! =D oh ya..he hit 4 three-pointers! jeremy almost hit the no. 46..lolx..its not worth it if he get a technical foul for it..so immediately ask kx to sub jeremy out when the match left 1 min..after the match..oh ya..ying n denis came over n watch the match..n after the match..ying send me a msg telling me denis(coach of invictus) encourage me to go for the coaching course next year..cuz say my coaching is quite good..hehehe.. =D

anyway..Soul playing punggol tml but last min notice say got quiz..so i wasn't able to be there for the match..haix..anyway..really hope they will play well against punggol.. =) anyway..SOUL MAKE IT FOR THE SEMI FINALS..

Piggy..can take care of urself anot? BAICHI!!! seems to feel that u getting more n more stress le..dun fall sick again k? jiayou for ur work..think another 1 more month only rite? =) love u..

zhutou(liting)!!! miss u..

我从来没有想过要放弃。
对你的爱也不曾减少。
只是我能做的都做了。
却还是走不进你的心里。
我想知道，
如何让你接受我
我不害怕失去，
因为不曾拥有。
却害怕不能给你最好的
有人告诉我，
如果我给不起，
就放手，
因为她有资格选择，
谁能给她最好的一切。
我希望能牵着你的手
一起走通往幸福的道路。
只是你还会愿意，
和一个什么都没有，
还浑身是伤，
唯一有的
只是一颗爱你的心。
想和你在一起，
在你需要依靠时，
陪在你身边。
在你伤心难过时
静静聆听。
想尽办法逗你笑
在你开心时陪你大笑。
如果可以，
能不能相信我，
不会松开手让你受伤。
i need u
i miss u
i love u

对不起

说真的，现在的我
不再有资格说爱你。
恐怕，连照顾你，保护你，
我都做不到。
记得那天你去看SOUL的比赛，
我的脚突然发作。
我心里唯一想到的，
是这样的我，要怎么照顾你。
我希望，能为你带来的，
是幸福，是快乐。
我现在，恐怕只会为你带来麻烦。
我能感受他比我适合。
所以勇敢去爱一场。
因为他，值得你的一次机会。
反正pengrui 和 penguin
从小就习惯了冰冷的世界。
通往幸福的道路，
我的脚，无法继续走下去。
选择，一步步离开。
彻底忘了我。。。

再给我多一点时间

my mom is going to kill me soon..i cried today when i reach home cuz my leg really killing me..lol..last time is ankle..now is the back heel that going to kill me..now i really regretted wearing slippers to play basketball..cuz no protection for my back heel n whenever i sit down at the court..my back heel will hit the ground..n this carries on for quite a few times already..i thought leaving it then it will recover de..so nv pay much attention to it..then now..when i am wearing covered shoes to jump..it hurts like crap for BOTH legs..today i came home n mom already at home le..then my bad habit of taking of my shoe..is using my leg instead of untie the shoelaces first before taking it off..then i cried when i took off the shoe cuz my leg kick against that back heel of my right leg..i fall straight down to the ground n cry..the pain is like WTF!! gosh..my mom run over n ask me what happen? die..Readers..bless me pls!! help me bless my mom won't pull me to checkup..I AM SCREWED!!!!! just hope my leg will at least tahan me until SOUL wins the final..i still have to play one-on-one with kx, mervin, phil, ernest and jeremy..for them to learn everything i know for basketball..for them to be able to counter against me..GOD pls..if u really wants to make me end my basketball life.can u pls..just give me a little more time!! I beg u..i have too much regrets for basketball..dun take away my one n only hope for basketball NOW..

perfect match SOUL..LOVE U GUYS!!

I am so HIGH now!!! SOUL beat stingers 77-18..59 points lead..hehehehehehe..readers..pls forgive me.. =P
ok..match updates..
No.4 Mervin Ong:22 points, 0 fouls
No.11 Kai Xiang: 17 points,1 foul
No.6 Jeremy :16 points, 3 fouls
No.15 Ernest : 10 points, 2 fouls
No.10 Philip : 6 points, 0 fouls
No.14 Zheng Han: 4 points, 0 fouls
No. 5 Kane : 2 points, 0 fouls

record breaking match..after not scoring for past 7 matches..philip scored 6 points for SOUL.. =) rebound today is also quite well done..other than jeremy n ernest..there is no more extra fouls for the match..thhe opponent team no.88 is one freaking asshole!! i swear if i were jeremy..i whack him liao..lolx..no. 88 push jeremy 3 times when jeremy was going for a lay-up..fucker..if jeremy got hurt because of that player pushing..i swear to whack that asshole until he go hospital with broken arms..n go over to the opponent bench to smash the coach head until he is unconscious!! was lucky i shouted for jeremy to hold back after being pushed..then ask them to win them even more points if we are unhappy wif them..lolx! so score as if no need money one..last quarter(10mins)..we scored 29 points straight but the opponent team scored 0 points!! =D

oh ya..i met joel the other day cuz he say he want play bball..then we chat about secondary school life about girls who likes me in school last time..lolx..cuz some of the girls that likes me that time is his ex de best friend..lolx..damn funny..then suddenly talk about girls that likes me now then he know i breaks record..then today he went to watch soul match..then when we were at dover mrt..there are few girls walk past then look at me lah..so joel was at my side saying "she is looking at u, bu yao fang dian hor!" i was like =.= lolx..i nv do anything..hahas..btw he keep asking me a question do i still miss zhang'e..cuz that time..everyone says we very loving and will confirm last de..n to be honest..我还是会想到她，可是，并不是想念。她在我心里留下的，并不是我想去想念的过去。或许我应该感谢，上天没有将她带走。让我能放手让她学会如何自爱，再去爱人。没有让我的生命里，多一份遗憾。她留下的除了伤害，只有面对不完的压力。那段爱情，除了你的家人，朋友支持。我的家人，朋友，兄弟，都不曾认同这段感情。我所在背后面对的压力，有谁懂？　这段爱结束后，你伤心难过，哭着叫我给你多一次机会。那是我这辈子，第一次无法再落泪。我的眼泪，早在分手前，掉光了。我才发现，和你分手前，我的心，早已封闭。你自以为是全世界最了解我的人。可是，最不了解我的人，是你！她在这感情里，留下的，是无数的伤痛。

I LOVE SOUL

I have got to admit..i really love SOUL..lolx..random..but i just feel so touched..seeing the boys nv give up after tough trainings..n seeing them grow and improve day by day is the best thing ever..the lost against fastbrakes was intend a heartbreaking one..but..i really see how much this team meant to everyone of them..could still recall xiaopang crying during training..as he didn't pass properly n results in whole team doing push-up again n again..n during the match against fastbrakes..kx scold the team for the lack of determination to win until cry..n msg me in the nite telling me can he not play in the match against stingers..reason being: after he join the game again..the lead of 12 points was immediately fight back..but it wasn't his fault..the boys are still inexperience in games of handling full court press..everything was intend fine for us..just that the fouls on SOUL is too much..captain mervin had his first foul in 5 sec..kx got 3 fouls in first quarter..end of match..my top 4 scorer(mervin, kaixiang, ernest n jeremy) had 4 fouls each..WTH..n xiaopang, kane n zheng han got 3 fouls each..OMG..anyway..a very good effort from SOUL..

btw liting..thanks for the chat..i feel much better le..i will lead SOUL to semifinals n finals!! =D

boring

blogging in school at engine hall one..gosh..having a terrible headache n i feel like i going to die..lolx..lessons ended at 11am today n have to stay back in school until 2pm for a freaking talk.. =.= lucky yikai coming also..hahas..anyway..ppl..a long long story about why my blog turns private..shall tell u ppl if i meet up wif u k?? =)

因为，你值得我这么做

和你的约定，我做到了。
我想让你知道，对你的爱
不再是说说而已。
我依然还是等待着，
和你的3年之约。
希望通往幸福的道路，
陪在你身边的人，
是我。。。
为了你，
就算最后你选择的人，
不是我，
我也觉得值得为你这么做。
伤害你的人，
都有抽烟。
如果我不戒。
又怎么有资格说爱你。
猪头，我答应你，
会用尽一生的爱
去呵护着你。
不再让你受伤。
对你的所有承诺，
我一定会做到。

对你的爱

我在你眼里，能不能不再是个弟弟？
年龄的差距对你而言，
真的那么难以接受吗？
我只需要你，
问一问自己，
和我在一起，
你开心吗？
和我在一起，
你有压力吗？
因为我喜欢上你。
是因为和你在一起，
我能毫无压力做自己。
想笑就笑，
想哭就哭。
在你面前的我，
是最脆弱的。
也是最真实的我。
能不能给我一个机会，
让我陪着你，
在你脆弱时
抱着你让你哭。
我从不敢对你做出任何承诺，
只因为相信，
说的比做的容易，
所以想用行动证明
对你的爱。
我答应你，不会放手让你受伤。
除非那一天你亲口告诉我，
你不再需要我。
我绝不离开。

wordy again

omg..got so many things to blog about..but damn lazy lehx..hahas..anyway..liting got to go for dinner wif someone... who is quite irritating from wad i heard from her..so was telling her that day in msn to use a method i use before to run away from a date..she say until like the idea was so bad..but end up..she did almost the same thing..hahas.. btw..He asked liting to think for the venue for dinner but she dunno where to go..so i told her go food court to eat..but she say until as though he wanted to go to a restaurant or something..but no..liting ask him to think where to go for dinner instead cuz it was his idea to date her for dinner..n he says nearby market..make me laugh until going to die..btw..that guy way of liking a girl...a bit sick lor..i think if i know him n liting is my gf..i might really skin him off..

anyway..that zhutou! she asked me if i will be free for dinner on friday..cuz due to my fever that day..i can't meet her up..then i sms her on thursday during her lunch break to ask her if she going out on saturday morning..cuz if she is..then dun go too far to eat..cuz need to travel back..so i tell her if she going out on sat morning..then meet her at sing post for dinner..(Basically because she is a pig who needs sleep) hahas//BUT..she dun understand wad i am typing in the sms..end up calling me to ask what am i typing..baichi anot?? hehe..anyway..on friday..before i met liting..OMG..i dunno how to blog about wad happen..anyway thanks to one person n i dun even feel like eating when i meet liting..that person name oftenly appear in my blog n is one of my brother..so i guess my regular readers will know who it is..hahas..

btw..i had a really nice time chatting wif liting..she was kinda full so we didn't eat when we met..so find a place to sit n chat for like 3hours..told her about some stuffs that happen during my secondary school life n she really laugh like dunno wad..then she share wad did A who likes her do n stuffs..sorry wor..keep interrupting ur story telling..but i really got listen..hahas..just wanted to di siao u only..hehe.. =D need to call for rescue team..xiuying, huiping, me n boon kiat can take turn..dun need worry if your another fren bu fang bian help u. hahas..take care anyway.. =)